I've decided to make my journal friends only because...well, I can. :) Sooo if you happen to come across it and would like to be added to my friends list, leave a comment and I shall add you back ;)

S xxx

tootyfrooty journal looking cool :)

*Yawns*

Bed time me thinks.

S xxx

Hungry and tired, and yet not wanting to sleep or eat for some reason. I'm very much in a film watching mood, so I may just do that.

Not gone into college today for a few reasons. I woke up this morning having every intention of going, but as soon as I got downstairs to make breakfast, I got a huge headache come on, and so took paracetemol and lay down for awhile. What I thought would be lying down for a few minutes ended up being a few hours, and I woke up and thought sod it. I gave college a call and told them I wasnt going in.

Still, had a useful morning though. I helped Scott clean our bedroom, and now it is actually clean with nothing at all on the floor besides the carpet, which rocks. We can actually walk around the room now. Scott also brought the chest of drawers from the spare room into our room so I can put clothes away, because for the three weeks or so that I've been back here, my clothes have remained in a bag on the floor. So I'm glad that's all done and sorted.
We then messed around on the bed for awhile and had a kissing session which was lovely :) Then Scott had to go get ready for work.
We have big plans for the house though *grins*. We're going to spend this weekend decorating the bedroom, and also going to Ikea to buy some bits and bobs, such as new curtains for the bedroom, a new rug or two perhaps, and a new bath and toilet mat as the old one has had it. I think we're also going to look into getting some lino for the bathroom floor.

So, besides watching a film today, I'm going to wash the dishes as the sink's starting to get half full now, and put the laundry in the tumble dryer. I would put it on the line but it's raining, then maybe sort out my box of junk I brought back from my parents. Hehe.

I've now decided what I'd like to do for the design of my tootyfrooty journal. I just need someone to do it for me as I'm a dumbass. So, any volunteers? Scott said he can do it tonight if I want, but it depends if anyone else wants a bash at it? :)

S xxx

Does anybody have an LJ code they can give up for me? *flutters eyelashes*

S xxx

Woo! Just been told I get to go home at 2:30pm rather than 3:30pm!

*Does a 'lil' jig*

S xxx

At college at the moment. I'm so bored! I cant wait to go home. I think me and all the girls cant wait. We've been given an assignment to keep us entertained which'll more than likely take me until lunch time which is in half an hour. After lunch I plan on writing a letter to Becka seeing as I wont be doing anything else. Didnt bring any money or food for lunch and I'm really hungry now :( Ah well.

So much stuff has gone off this weekend in a big, loud blur and it's made me dizzy, lol. I was saying to Scott last night that I feel a bit lost at the moment because lots of things have changed so quickly and my head's not keeping up with it all, if you get my drift? Anyone know what I mean? Very weird.

I'm gonna get home later and eat, and then chill out for the afternoon doing whatever. Then I'll cook myself and Scott some dinner in the evening (although I'll put his in the oven to keep warm as he isnt home until later tonight), maybe watch a film and stuff. Wish I knew more people around the area...would be cool if I could invite people around to have a laugh and stuff. Amy (neighbour) has said that if I'm ever bored then I can go and chill round her's if I want so I might do sometime this week.

Bleugh...Monday blues :(

Anyway, off to finish the assignment and then sit and doodle. Woo!

S xxx

Meh...

Well, just got home from camping. I have to say it was a weekend of mixed feelings about everything...wasnt as cool as I thought it would be really. I'm not sure why though.
Friday was really cool. It completely hammaered it down on the way to Bakewell...like, terrential rain. We thought it was going to piss it down all weekend. However, we got to the campsite and it stopped raining...just a slight drizzle every now and again. Rob, Chris and Jimbo then met us and we went and picked a spot to set up camp. As we did so the clouds broke away and it was lovely warm sunshine for the rest of the night. After pitching the tent up and sorting everything out, I sat in Scott's car and asked him if I could have a go driving it! So he sat in the passenger seat next to me and talked me through everything I had to do to actually get the car started, I then put my foot on the accelerator and drove round the site where we'd pitched the tents up. I started off very well, then got a little nervous because I started to go faster but completely forgot to take my foot of the accelerator, and so slammed my foot down on the brake, making the wheels spin into the soil underneath and myself and Scott jolt forward. It was really amusing. Chris and Jimbo just stood under the gazebo laughing at me!
Adam, Tasha and Mel turned up shortly after my first ever time behind the wheel of a car, and we stood around drinking and chatting, then Clare, Andy and his friend (Dailey I think he was called) turned up after them. Rob had gone to pick up his girlfriend, Kirsty, and when they returned, we got the BBQ going. We all just sat in the sun eating and drinking for the rest of the evening, with the acception of Andy and Dailey who got completely stoned as they'd bought tonnes of the stuff with them. Every 10 minutes they were lighting up another joint. It was really funny.

Saturday I woke up to find myself almost lying on top of Scott. It was only then I realised we'd pitched the tent on a slope. We both went and got cleaned and dressed at the shower units, then decided to go and look for coffee, as I had a craving for some. We ended up driving quite a way until we found a Safeway where Scott bought us both a proper cooked breakfast and a coffee which was yummy. We then went back to the campsite where the others were up and dressed and about ready to go on a walk. I really didnt feel like walking as it was hot and I hate the heat and knew I'd become bad tempered it I went, so I decided to stay behind. Scott stayed with me as he didnt want to leave me on my own which was nice :) The two of us went for a drive straight through the Derbyshire Dales which was amazing. Some of the views we got whilst going around were incredible. I really wished I'd took a camera now! Anyway, I decided that we should head back to the camp site seeing as we were only about 5 miles away from Manchester (!!!) and we stoppped off at this little pub in the middle of nowhere, and had a coke.
When we got back to the site, everyone except Clare, Chris, Rob and Kirsty had returned from their walk, and we all went into Bakewell for some food. We skipped pubs until we found somewhere suitable to eat and then we headded back to the camp site to chill out. The rest of Saturday was spent drinking and eating the BBQ, then in the evening the majority of us except Tasha (who was suffering badly from Hayfever), Mel (who'd passed out), Andy and Dailey (who were too stoned) went to the site's bar for a drink.
That evening I'd been complaining of neck, shoulder and back ache. I woke up at 1am in complete agony, and decided to go and sleep in the car to see if it would be more comfotable than the hard floor in the tent. I managed to get a restless hour and a half in the car before waking up again in lots of pain. I trundled back to the tent and cried because I was so frustrated because I couldnt sleep, and was hurting a lot. Scott woke up and asked what was wrong and I told him inbetween sobs and he hugged me and gave up his pillow for me to see if it could help the pain, and it did, bless him.

I woke up this morning feeling very drained and very grumpy. Most people were up when I emerged out of the tent, and I wasnt in the mood for sociallising, so I grabbed my clothes and toilettries and made my way to the shower unit to freshen up. Afterwards I joined the others and sat down to find Jimbo and Chris making breakfast (bacon, burgers and sausages on the BBQ). I had 2 bacon cobs and a burger and felt so much better.
Scott and I then decided that we really wanted to head off home as we both wanted to get clean in the shower and to colapse in our comfy warm bed. So we took the tent down, shoved everything in the car, said bye to everyone else and thanks for a cool weekend, and started off home.
On the way we passed a car boot sale, and Scott suggested going to Thorsby car boot to have a look around and stuff, and so we did. It was OK until we both got aggitated from the amount of people that were so annoying (people who just stood in the middle of the path where everyone was walking), and decided to head off home.

So, that was our weekend. How was yours?

For now I'm going to finish my coffee, jump in the bath, sort out my washing and chill out until bed time. Up nice and early for college tomorrow!

S xxx

Dream Film Cast
Tom Hanks, Nicholas Cage, Angelina Jolie, Keanu Reeves,
Julia Stiles, Vin Diesel, Edward Norton...and lots more.

Dream Rock Band
Chino Moreno (Deftones - Vocalist), John Dolmayan (System Of A Down - drums), Rayna Rose (Coal Chamber's ex bassist), Kirk Hammet (Metallica - guitarist).

Dream Lover
I dont have one really. James Hetfield is pretty yummy though.

Dream Project
To exterminate all rainforest tree cutting forever. To throw the worlds biggest Greenpeace festival. (Feeling kinda hippish today).


Dream Alternative Career
Musician.

Dream Holiday
To travel around the entire world, including the Artic and Antartica!

Dream Home
Some really big mansion somewhere in the country, or a huge apartment somewhere in the City on the top floor of the building.

Dream Cuisine
I'm not sure...probably some kind of foreign food though. I wonder what they eat in Russia, or Brazil?

Dream Day Out
Well, it'd have to be with the right person. I have two versions of this day. First I'd like to wake up in the morning and have breakfast in bed..dunno why, it would just make the day that extra little bit special. I'd like to go to Alton Towers and ride of everything until I was sick, I'd then like to go out for a meal somewhere nice. Either a proper resteraunt or a pub..doesnt bother me really. Then go to the cinema to see the latest cool flick, followed by home.
Or! I'd like to go down to London for the day with my clostest girlfriends, £10,000 in hand....SHOPPING!

Anyway...Scott woke me up earlier when he called to give me the number for is workplace incase I get lost trying to find it. I stuck the remaining bit of washing I needed to do for the trip in the machine, and hopefully it'll be dry by the time I have to leave the house.
As usual with any camping trip I look forward to, the weather takes a change for the worse the night before. It's raining :( But, nevertheless, we're still going! Although I dont know how we're going to cook stuff on the BBQ...unless someone's bringing a gazeebo with them or something. And nevertheless, I'm sure we'll have a good time still :)
So...shall be back on Sunday I think!

S xxx

Update: Gonna miss the end of Big Brother tonight! Goddamnit! :( (Cameron to win!)

It's raining! :(

S xxx

Not gone into college today due to lack of sleep from feeling ill last night, and feeling dead to the world this morning when I woke up. Even Scott didnt get up on time. He awoke at about 5:30am which was the time he had to be leaving the house, bless him. So he charged around getting ready and then shot out of the house with Rich behind him.
I also have no money to get to college either. What little money I have is in the bank, and Scott didnt have any cash he could lend me either. Ah well.

So, plans for today is to do something, of which I'm not sure what yet though...I'll find something. Then when Scott gets home we have to do a fanny around for some stuff for the BBQ tomorrow, including finding a tent. Thats about it really.

S xxx

So, college was as boring as ever today. Hardly did a thing all day due the fact that my tutor is a lazy bugger, so I sat and drew for ages, and played on the typing test thingy on the computer. My eyes really hurt all day though. It was so annoying.

Came home and really had the urge to do something before I died from boredom, so Scott and I went on a random 3 hour drive around Derbyshire for no apparent reason. It was quite cool actually..we were high up on the hillsides around Matlock and got some amazing views, found a street called Pump Lane which was highly amusing, and found a town called Clowne. We sang along to the radio and laughed and joked and talked about crap really...it was really nice.
Afterwards we were both really hungry, and so had a MacDonalds, the came back home to go straight to bed.

Tomorrow I have college, then Friday I'm off due to the tutors and other staff members having a BBQ, so all the students dont need to be there on Friday. So instead I'm going to jump on a bus and meet Scott from work around 2pm, then him and I and his work mates are gonna go and camp somewhere with lots of alcohol and BBQ goodness until Sunday me thinks! I cant wait.
So tomorrow after college I imagine we'll do a bit of shopping for that, and see into getting a tent from someone, or buying one.

Kinda annoyed because I've noticed that whenever I go to bed early with Scott, I can never sleep and feel really aggitated, even though I wake up really early in the morning with Scott, and am at college for 9am. It's so weird. Ah well...I'm sure it'll sort itself out sooner or later. If not then I have sleeping pills!
Tis probably why my eyes were hurting today.

Anyway, going to try and have another go at sleeping!

S xxx

Happy Birthday to karlaanne and falsememories :)

I would write a longass update about recent shit that's gone off due to a few people being melodramatic, but I canny not be arsed.

Ah well...maybe tomorrow :)

S xxx

Up early again to go to college. I feel quite awake this morning and am already showered, dressed, fed and watered, and have also sorted out my laundry from last night. I had a dodgy night's sleep though. I keep having this re-accuring dream that large poisonous spiders are crawling under the covers to come and kill me. They're like bee's, only with eight legs and no wings. It's not very pleasant, and I often wake up wriggling around trying to bat these imaginary spiders off me. It didnt help that yesterday night I had the same dream, and when I awoke that morning, there was a HUGE one in the kitchen, and as usual Scott made me take it outside, lol. But I couldnt do it, so he did it instead.
I usually like spiders, so where're these horrible dreams coming from?

I'm not sure what I'll be doing at college today. I hope it's not as boring as yesterday though. The good thing is, I can go a little more prepared now. Yesterday I didnt need anything really, but today I'm going to take some lunch with me seeing as I'm there for the majority of the day, and some money for a drink, and a pen. Can never have enough pens!

Was kinda thinking of getting my tongue re-pierced when I can afford to. The only thing that's putting me off is the week of eating nothing but slop and talking really dodgily. I'm definately going to wait until I have a job first though incase they dont allow it...but hey. Sounds like a plan! I miss my piercings sometimes. Both Scott and my Mum say I look better without them, but I loved them when I had them. Ah well.

Yesterday I finally got round to writing back to Becka during my lunch break at college. She sent me a letter about a month or 2 ago, and I promised I'd write back to her that week I got the letter, but alas I either forgot or was too busy. I havent finished it yet, but it's something to do when I get home. I miss her a lot sometimes. I last saw her about 2 weeks ago actually. I literally bumped into her in a clothes shop (Etam) and I mean, walked into her, lol. We hugged and catched up on stuff for a short while and I kind of glanced at these books she was holding to find they were A-level Chemistry and A-level Maths, and then suddenly felt dumb compared to her. Hehe, ah well. She's happy enough with everything which is the main thing I guess.

I sometimes wonder about my life. A lot of my friends from school have this whole plan of their lives set out. They know exactly what they want and are working their way to get it now. In someways I'm different from them as I've always been someone who likes to take life one day at a time. But I cant help but wonder where my life is going, weather I'm making the right choice to be where I am now, weather everything's going to screw up royally or in ten years from now I'll still be with Scott, in a bigger house somewhere else in the county, or somewhere else in the country, with a few kids, and still happy. I'd really like to think that right now. I really wish that would happen, but to be honest I'm not sure if it will. Life changes all the time I guess. And it scares me.

Last night Scott and I watched The Shawshank Redemption. I dont know if anyone has seen it before, but if not then I strongly recommend it. If you like the Green Mile then you'll like this.

Right...got to do the hair and make-up before leaving the house. I look rough as hell!

S xxx

Meh...I feel so ratty and irritated and tired and blah. I feel so sick of stuff recently. I feel sick of not having any money for starters, I'm sick of having to clean up all the time...no matter how much I do it, the kitchen still looks a tip. I'm sick of having to tell Scott to stop cleaning up too, as it isnt fair that he comes home from work and has to do it all. I just feel guilty if it's a mess, and feel like I have to immediately clean it up, even though the majority of the time it's not my mess!
I'm sick of worrying about weather Mum's OK with me being back here or not. I havent spoken to her for over a week now, and I dont know weather I should or not either. I dont know if as soon as she picks up the reciever to the phone she's going to give me an earful about something or another, or weather she'll be fine with me. But, afterall, I did give her my number. If she wanted to talk to me and see how I am, then she knows how to use a phone. I just wish she'd actually call me rather than get my uncle to see how I am via MSN Messenger.

Well, as the song goes: 'things can only get better'...heh.

S xxx

Shit the bed, I'm home early! Wasnt meant to be in until 4pm, but, giving my fast writing skills, I got all the work done early.

So, first day at the training centre was down right boring. All me and Emma (another girl starting there) did was listen to our supervisor drone through large amounts of Health and Safety and Equal Opportunity booklets before he set us lots of questions to do about them. I think the only amusing incident of the day was having my spare 15p swallowed by the coffee machine. I then went and complained about it to the supervisor who gave me the 15p back, for me to only go and see if the coffee machine would work again, for the 15p to be swallowed again. So in my rage of losing 30p, I went and scrawled 'OUT OF ORDER' in big bold letters on some paper, and blu-tacked it to the coffee machine. That'll teach the bastard not to eat money in future.

For the remains of the day I shall play The Sims, wash the dishes, cook fajita's for Scott and I for dinner, maybe watch a film or something, then sleep.

S xxx

Anyone get the same problem as me where you want to update your journal, but you're not quite sure where to start or how to start it? Well, I guess it doesnt help that it's quarter to six in the morning and my brain's not functioning all that well at the moment :S.

Yesterday was very nice :) kuzanagi_ and his girlfriend Sara came round to spend the day with Scott and I. It's funny how knowing someone on the internet can be very different from knowing someone in 'real life'..in person. They both werent at all what I had expected them to be, they were much nicer and easier to talk to and friendly, etc. Sara's very bubbly and bouncy which was why I liked her so much, and she has nice hair too, hehe :)
We started off grabbing some lunch/dinner at a pub (we did go to The Mill first but it was closed...odd timing), and a few drinks, then we had about a half hour debate on what to do after that as non of us were very good at deciding that! In the end we settled for a film, and went to see The Hulk. It was OK I guess, not overly amazing. It kind of dragged on for what seemed like five hours, and there wasnt really any story line to it, but yanno, some of the effects were good, and Sara bought me Bailey's ice cream which made everything better :)
After the film they came in for a quick coffee and then headded off seeing as it was getting on for 8pm. But overall a lovely day :) We're talking about going to Alton Towers together sometime in August too, which'll be great :)

Today I start my admin training. I have to be there for 9am and I'm already having a clothes crisis. Thing is I should be sorting it now so I wont be late or anything, but I darent go up and look for a top to wear otherwise I'll end up really frustrated and throw a tantrum and not want to go, lol. I hate it when I havent got the appropriate clothes to wear for occasions such as this. I left all my decent shirts back at my parents house, so sometime this week I'm going to ask Scott if he can take me there, then I wont have anything to worry about.
On the whole I'm looking forward to it though. Kind of a bit nervous as I dont know what to expect yet, and was saying to Karl and Em last night that I dont know what I should take, like stationery wise. They just said to take a pen and a little bit of paper. Should be all I need. The people there would expect new students not to be totally organised straight away, especially as it is their induction day only.

This weekend Scott and I are off out again with his work mates, only this time we're going camping! And once again it'll include large amounts of alcohol and a few more BBQ's. Hehe! :) I cant wait. It's great how I get on well with them all. I find them really friendly, and funny :) And apparently a couple of girls there have been asking after me, which is really cool :)

I'm offth to eatth breakfasth!

S xxx

Not much gone off today really. We left the house later than planned, about 3pm ish, and decided to head off to Sheffield last minute. So we got to Meadowhall, and Scott bought us both a MacDonalds which was cool, then we had a wander around for awhile. Scott went into HMV and bought Bo Selecta on DVD for himself, and The Sims Superstar for me as he knew I'd been wanting it for ages, bless him :) It really made my day.
We then met up with a mate in a really nice pub that do really cool cocktails. I had a Pina Colada and Scott had Long Island Iced Tea which I tried, and it's got to be the most tangiest thing I've ever tasted. Almost like sucking on a lemon!
We then decided to head off back home and got here for about 8:30pm. Scott installed my Sims game, and I've been playing on it ever since! It rocks so much, just a shame I dont really have a clue what to do on it yet, hehe. Ah well, I'll learn.

Tomorrow we're meeting up with kuzanagi_ and his girlfriend Sara :) It'll be the first time I've met them both and so I'm a little nervous, but then again not as I already know them...if that makes sense :S Ah well, I'm sure we'll have fun :)

Off to eat something, then off to bed.

S xxx